Confusing Times

I know that many of you have wondered about my silence.  I had put the blog to rest and said goodbye to social media.  I needed the break from some of the comments that had been and are still being posted.  Some of you have sent messages to Carol and I wondering why so many derogatory comments have been about people in our family. It definitely has been a confusing time and more than heartbreaking.

Our focus has been and is still about Tina.  Our hearts are heavy with this illness progressing so fast.  Mom and Dad are having a very hard time and Carol and I are struggling between wanting to be there to help and the needs of our own families. It has been very hard to read comments that would insinuate that we don’t care.

I do want to share that some of these comments were intended to discredit my daughter and call my granddaughter names.  For those that know my daughter, you will know how close her and Aunt Tina have been through the years.  She was there with Tina when she received the diagnosis.  She jumped in with both feet trying to help along the way.  She scheduled appointments and often was there to take notes.  She organized friends and family to be with Tina.  She set up a food train to supply meals to the family.  She took time off work, used lots of gas money, found equipment to help Tina as her mobility worsened and spent a lot of time in tears.  Before being cut off from visiting, she helped to organize Tina’s 55th birthday.

As for my granddaughter, she is one of the sweetest girls that most people will ever meet.  She is a real helper and has won the heart of many.  Words can not express how much we love her. ❤️

I hope, that for those of you that know us, will realize that we love our sister very much.  She is never far from our thoughts.  Our prayers are constantly about her. Many tears have been shed since we first heard about Tina’s illness and there is hardly a day that goes by that we don’t cry.

Thank you to everyone that has been there for Tina through visiting, giving and praying.  I felt that it was necessary to stop my radio silence so that you could see my heart. Thank you to all those who understand that we are SISTER THREE and we are STEELE STANDING together.

Introducing…the newest addition

Yesterday we welcomed a new baby into our little fold. Carol’s daughter,  Xarra and Alex had a baby boy weighing 8 pounds.

Welcome to the world little one.  You are precious and already loved.

The  “I’m STEELE Standing” blog will be taking a break.

I want to thank all of you for following along the journey.  It’s been full of twists and turns and more downs than ups.  Right now the road is just too bumpy to keep going and the road map got thrown out the window. So until we get back on the right path…we will just find a rest spot.

Love,

Penny

Memories

Facebook can be annoying and frustrating at times.  Often there are more ads on there than news from Facebook friends.  One of my favourite things from this social media is to see happy news from family and friends.  I enjoy those first day of school pictures, the decorated houses for Christmas, and of course, most recent the great costumes from the little and not-so-little trick or treaters.

Another thing I enjoy from Facebook is when it pops up and says that “you have memories to look back on this date.”  I can fondly remember great vacations, good hikes and how cute and little our grandchildren were.  To set the record straight, they are still cute but not so little.

Today this picture popped up as a memory.  It was a picture that Tina had tagged me in.

It’s so sad to me that I won’t get any messages from Tina any more unless a miracle happens.  So, when Facebook shows me a memory that Tina is in, I will treasure that moment even more.

I know that the blog has been a little quiet these days but I don’t hear a lot of news or the news is much the same.  Tina continues to be looked after at the hospital.  Some of you have gone to visit or take Tina for a walk.  Some of you have sat with Tina and fed her and many of you have offered words of encouragement and told us that you are continuing to pray.  

We appreciate all of you….because of you we are STEELE Standing.